Wednesday, July 25, 2012

the sky is falling, the sky is falling!

I have been feeling rawtha fearful lately.  Irrational fears. Chicken Little kind of stuff. 

King helped me figure out that it is due of an extreme loss of control over many, many, many things as of late.  Control freak or not, it is about to push me over the edge.  Many of them are actual losses.  Some of them are perceived.  Perhaps if I were to share the "short list"....
  1. I am afraid that I may be spiritually lost
  2. I have lost touch with a dear friend who has moved
  3. I have lost someone very close whom I have known for most of my life
  4. A sweet husband of mine was trying to get all our outgrown clothes together to donate and as a result, I have lost a sweet college graduate's 12 tee shirts from which I was make a memory quilt.
  5. It is not easy letting go/losing control over the oldest children and the decisions they are making which will affect the rest of their lives.
  6. My laundry pile is out of control!
  7. Um, where is the top of my computer desk?
  8. Wait, what?  Didn't you just come ask me for a snack five minutes ago and now you want something else to eat?
  9. Now that baby goes to kindergarten in three weeks, what will mommy do all day?
  10. Uh, who am I?
  11. Why does King have to work so many hours?
  12. How do people spend an inordinate amount of time drinking, laughing, hooting it up with their friends, and still have time to keep everything at home all together?
  13. Why does it seem that money is leaking out of our account like a sieve?
  14. Where will No 1 go to college?  Or will she drag her heels and not make a decision in time and NOT go to college?  She is so bright and beautiful, it would be a shame for her not to reach her fullest potential.  How much can I push?  How much should I push?  I don't want to lose her, too.
  15. Will I be able to lose the one thing I have always wanted to lose?  Ever?

Just thinking about all this makes my stomach knot and I am not able to take a full breath.  I know that all will be well (St. Julian, pray for us).  But right now, I am seeing chunks of sky landing all around me.

On a related note, here is the word for today:

In fluid dynamics, turbulence or turbulent flow is a flow regime characterized by chaotic and stochastic property changes. This includes low momentum diffusion, high momentum convection, and rapid variation of pressure and velocity in space and time.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

a letter

Dear Mother Nature,
I am crazy about all the different types of lovely ferns.  Only thing is that I am terribly sorry about having killed so many by trying to have them as houseplants. 
Ugh. What am I doing wrong? 
Am I going to just have to buy (gulp) fake ferns?
the fern killer

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

oh yeah...

...I nearly forgot:  No 41 told me to tell y'all "hey."

Walker's Point, Kennebunkport, Maine

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

if it is this lovely in summer, bet they're right about it in the fall

King and I spent a day in Boston recently.  Here are my thoughts:

-Parking anyone?  No wonder everyone walks!

-Do any of you sweet people walking around Brookline actually work, or do you just walk and ride your bikes, and push your babies in strollers around?

-Hey Boston, can you show the rest of America's cities how to keep themselves clean?

-No wonder it's called Bean Town, the drivers are constantly tooting.

-Fenway Victory Gardens-!  How cool is that?

-Toll roads?  Why didn't you warn me, I would have brought cash?!?!

le lobstah
Boston Common, oldest park in America
Folks learning to sail, now, ain't that perty, y'all?
gilded grasshopper atop Faneuil Hall
this Duck Tour bus/boat was actually made during WWII (1944) to be used as a military amphibious landing vehicle
Duck Tour boat- a replica of the WWII military vehicle

While waiting for a Duck Tour (highly recommend, if ever...),we see a tall block building with no windows (at least on the side we can see). We asked someone sitting nearby what it was. "Part of the Christian Science plaza." "Ahh," I replied, "that explains why there are no windows."

basically a mysterious, awkward tower that goes nowhere and has no windows to let in the light-
not that all of those facts mean anything at all...I'm just sayin'